You made it through a year.
Frankly, that's more than I expected of you. It hasn't been fun or easy, has it?
What little you ever managed to accomplish you threw away by a few intemperate remarks and an unrelenting arrogant pride.
The next year isn't going to get any better, or the year after that.
You're still a comparatively young woman, and you can expect at least 3 more decades of the day-to-day drudgery, poverty and loneliness that is the path you have chosen.
Facing such a bleak future, it is a wonder that you bother getting up from wherever it is that you lay down to sleep...logic would dictate that you should end yourself and avoid the further pain that is in store for you.
But here you are still...and yet you would deny that you have Faith.
I was both amused and disgusted by your vulgar performance at the University of Oregon. There was a shot of your face that clearly captured that you weren't REALLY enjoying what you were doing...you looked like a trapped animal, honestly.
I found it significant that it was the sound of Scripture being quoted that caused you to debase yourself in so obscene a manner as to cause your expulsion from polite society.
The demons that possess you very clearly responded to Divine wisdom by publicly demonstrating their power over you, did they not?
We no longer need your example, Frisch. The world has moved on beyond the near-insignificance of your public flameout...there are new villains to identify and excoriate.
If you are remembered at all, it will be with disgust and amusement...and you will no longer be of use to that which has infected you.
When it's done, and has discarded you,(as it might), I have told you where you may begin the road back. It is there that you may receive guidance in the matters of apologies and forgiveness and such.
You may go and continue rubbing yourself on posts, poles and fences in the meantime.
No punishment or insult I could impose or inflict would hurt more than leading the pathetic existence that you have fashioned.